Shard Demon

thought control

2009-01-22T08:26:55Z

it feels like i cant hold my anger in anymore. that fine line that devides is faded and my control seems to be losing its hold.
I feel like i should just let it all out, but thats never good, i always hurt other when i do that.
i did drive for no reason too... it kinda helped but my mind raced with other new thoughts like i should just keep going and not turn back. but i did close to rodgers MN.
so now im here just trying to keep it all from crumbling down all over.
maybe i just need to get away from here.

Many Thoughts all at Once

2008-08-15T08:17:19Z

sometimes i wish i could control everything and try to make it all right in this world... i feel so fustraited of what i see and the fact that i can't do anything to fix it... why is it injustice can go about hurting those we care for and all we can do is sit by and watch... and if we interfer at all where the ones that are disrupting the order of things not them, even when they know what their doing is wrong. it seems the only good there is has become what one wants for themselves alone, as if they have never grown up from that stage of greed... or maybe they know and like the attention their actions have gotten them... or perhaps they don't know and are blind to it all, only looking to further their own needs without thinking.
end of rant

havent wrote here in a long time

2008-07-09T06:41:08Z

just bored and so ive desided to write on here.
ive been ok, my mind is still odd and im trying to do with the thoughts it has.
ive been going out more even when i do want to.
i now have two really nice pitbulls that are really friendly and well behaved.
i have cell phone now too.
my court cases against me have been dropped.
i keep going in places i dont belong to take pictures.
im trying to get over my fear of heights and being underground... im not calstrphobic i don't like the idea that it could cave in.
and im also saying hi to everyone know on here since i havent in a long time.

new post

2008-03-08T06:32:00Z

i havent posted here in a long time, so im doing it now.

Driving got more fun

2007-05-09T17:55:53Z

i had my breaks checked... they were good the just make noise... so i git 4 new tires for 136... the suv drives so much better now, when i say go its there and all the tires are the same size now so it not lop sided... it feels nice to drive about to nowhere... i did that for quite a while after i got them... if i could i would drive till i was somewhere i didnt know and just see what i could.

sounds feel good today

2007-04-21T02:35:04Z

well im feeling good today, right now i dont care about anything... im just here, but not over there... or am i... who knows and who cares

illness

2007-04-15T06:07:35Z

i feel like shit, my entire body feels like i feel down a rocky hill with lots of small trees and jagged rocks, and to top that off i feel dizzy and congested... i also seem to be sleeping alot more than normal.

why am i writing this, mostly bored and couldent think of anything better... besides i dont post on here much anymore

A Huge Ass Axe

2007-04-02T19:09:44Z

im gonna build one, and it will be so big i'll need two hands to use... why... im not sure, besides I have money might as well spend it on things that have no purpose... i mean thats why i got clouds's buster sword from ff7.

Nothing New

2007-03-08T12:20:49Z

i havent wrote anything here in a long while. many ramdon thoghts are in my mind, but nothing i will share.

Funural

2007-01-18T12:27:13Z

well, today i go to help out my friends and say goodbye to kevo

Machine

2007-01-15T13:20:27Z

i can now go where ever i like... well for the most part
now i need to deside where to go... probly just stay at home
but i can leave whenever i please
damn thing takes too much gas... damn suv

New Years EVE

2006-12-31T23:56:03Z

im just gonna sleep and do nothing

Stolen from a friend and am amused

2006-12-20T03:44:35Z

Oh the Shard Demon outside is frightful
But the fire is so delightful
And since we've no place to go,
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow.

Let It Snow
from the Christmas Song Generator.

Stolen from a good friend'

2006-11-20T19:43:49Z

You are The Hermit

Prudence, Caution, Deliberation.

The Hermit points to all things hidden, such as knowledge and inspiration,hidden enemies. The illumination is from within, and retirement from participation in current events.

The Hermit is a card of introspection, analysis and, well, virginity. You do not desire to socialize; the card indicates, instead, a desire for peace and solitude. You prefer to take the time to think, organize, ruminate, take stock. There may be feelings of frustration and discontent but these feelings eventually lead to enlightenment, illumination, clarity.

The Hermit represents a wise, inspirational person, friend, teacher, therapist. This a person who can shine a light on things that were previously mysterious and confusing.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Unknown

2006-11-11T02:53:22Z

i dont know, its odd, i sleep more and more but it only seems to get worst. i need to release my rage and torment.

Happy Halloween... i won?

2006-10-31T17:10:03Z

well havent posted in a long ass time, now is good enuff i guess.
i went to the salloon last nite and my pirate costume won 1st place and i got a bottle of peache snaps and a ton of candy that i gave all away. its odd my costume won but oh well... maybe they knew i'd give the candy and stickers away... i kept the bottle and ribbion

2 Days

2006-09-07T12:03:40Z

my brithdays coming on saterday... im still not sure what to do for it

bored

2006-08-31T19:26:37Z

Im gonna cook a turkey... its already defrosted

Foooorrrrrgotijng

2006-08-27T09:07:48Z

dont ask me fo r i im lost and nnneed to finf me

Fuck you all

2006-08-27T07:43:43Z

i hope every one feel the void... fuck off all of you i dont care

Not Fond of this place

2006-08-20T12:31:04Z

im getting annoyed more and more with being here... i feel like im gonna snap, it feels like the vioces in my head are echoing and are beginning to drive me mad.

on a good note who wants ta come over and get drunk. ive got a whole 1.75 bottle of rum and some everclear and 151. sounds like a blast huh... hopefully... and dont worry i dont get glum around others, im really at pretending nothings wrong... so good that most of the time no knows at all

the last

2006-08-09T02:02:22Z

Well my frog died today, i had her for 11 years, im probly gonna bury her tonite.

???????

2006-08-08T08:03:31Z

I went out to hard monday for a min, then i left. i hate people. that is all.

A Car!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-08-03T06:25:10Z

I get a car for a week... all to myself... the sad part is ive got nowere to go

Odd

2006-07-25T15:43:58Z

Well i cut my hair... that is all